self deprecating,nothing new.

i recognize that the series of events tonight started with something i said. i realize that it was my words that set things into motion that could potentially ruin a friendship or two.and i am so angry with myself.

stupid girl.

stupid mouth.

stupid stupid stupid.

i'd like to drive far away this weekend and not come back.

but that would accomplish nothing.

running away won't solve anything.

i should just keep working until i die.

work every day.

because i can do that.

i can handle that.

being alone?

nah.

i've got a dog.

that'll suffice.

*facepalm* (and not the ironic type)